One glance was all it took…
I’m a cheater.
I’m a liar.
My whole life is a mess.
I love a man.
No, I love two men…
One makes love to me. The other sets me on fire.
One is my rock. The other is my kryptonite.
I’m broken, lost, and disgusted with myself.
But I can’t stop. This is my story.
My broken love story.
My heart has painfully ached, flat lined half a dozen times, been broken into a million pieces, then set on fire by Mia Asher with Arsen. I have never been so emotionally raw while reading a book before and the experience has been, while unwelcome at times, a refreshing purification of my soul. My heart truly beats differently since reading it a week ago.
Cathy is trying to overcome a sequence of tragic events and her husband Ben is by her side offering support while enduring the same loss. Feeling broken in more ways than one, Cathy emotionally and physically withdraws from her husband, while at the time seems justified, and discovers an escape of emotional reality in a place she never thought possible.
While I sympathized with Cathy’s loss, instead of remaining strong and keeping a positive outlook on her and Ben’s future, she became bitter and selfish and in my opinion, simply gave up. Instead of fighting for her broken marriage, she merely put a tiny Arsenic band-aid on a very large wound.
While the heroine is Cathy, I found my emotional connection with her husband Ben. Ben is attractive, successful, loyal, thoughtful; the perfect husband who’s love for his wife is undeniable from the beginning. A chance meeting in the rain, an impulsive kiss, followed by a spectacular first date that blossoms into a beautiful marriage. It’s…. perfection at its finest.
Love can destroy you.
Love can erase you.
Love can heal you.
Love can reinvent you.
And, if you’re lucky enough,
Love can make you whole again.
That’s what Cathy has done to me. ~ Ben
My heart broke when he had the confrontation with Cathy. For me, it was gut wrenching and I cried….like, real honest to God tears.
‘Love is never supposed to hurt. Love is supposed to heal, to be your haven from misery, to make living fucking worthwhile. But as I stare at my wife, I know it’s all fucking bullshit.’ ~ Ben
Yep, real tears I tell you.
Arsen is a sexy, arrogant, spoiled wealthy playboy who follows his own set of rules, which coincidentally are….none. He has a sharp tongue and manages to say and do the right things at opportune moments, making him seem charming, but he’s a wolf in sheep’s clothing. He’s toxic on so many levels and has absolutely no boundaries on who he invites into his bed. There is an emotional disconnect he has with himself, hence the bevy of babes at his fingertips, and while he thinks he has everything figured out, life throws him a curve ball he never saw coming.
I want to say so much more, but want to keep it spoiler free so you may experience it fully for yourself. If you are a person looking for a read full of anguish, torment, sorrow, anxiety, and fear, Arsen is it. While full of angst and you will most likely curse Mia Asher for entangling you in her web, in the end I think you will appreciate having read it. It’s made my list of top ten all time favorites, and that’s not an easy achievement.
“My beautiful girl, you healed me. You made me believe in love again, and I love you.”
‘Love is infinite. There is no beginning and no end. There’s no starting point and no finishing line. Love just is. Love is born, grows, matures, and sometimes it dies. But the memory will remain with you for the rest of your breathing hours. You fall in love, you fall out of love. But you will love again. You always do.
‘I want you in the worst possible way. You’re the drug that offers me a relief…that energizes me again…that soothes me…that delivers me sweet oblivion. You’re my drug of choice, Catherine. You’re my addiction. My euphoria.’
Arsen is an emotional tug of war that I couldn’t put down even for a second. I ordered take out, my human requirements instantly became a nuisance, and since I was an emotional wreck, I was elated I chose to read it when my husband was away on a business trip. However, sensing my melancholy during one of our phone chats, and being the wonderful, caring husband that he is, he cut his trip short and came home early in my time of need. Bless his heart!
Arsen may have momentarily turned a part of my heart upside down, but since, I laugh harder, love deeper, and know that sometimes your mind needs more time to accept what you heart already knows.